There are sooooo many side effects that no one cares to tell you about. After nursing my third child I think I finally get it and have a say in the side effects because I got it for EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. I would like to say I’m no expert. I’ve just had three babies sucking the life out of me, so I KNOW I’m not alone. I’m not trying to be scientifically right or with facts, I’m simply stating what I have been through that I know other mamas feel too.
Okay so I’ve had three babies so far and I didn’t start to feel or notice these sides effects until my second babe. My first babe I only nursed for about a month. My second babe I nursed until 7 months and my third I’m still nursing, she’s working her way to 7 months. So not until these last two I noticed that there was more than just this beautiful, natural, nurturing, thing called breast feeding. Don’t get me wrong I’m not against nursing, obviously I’ve had a baby on my tit for the last two years every three hours it seems!
One of the biggest things I have noticed when nursing is that AS SOON as the baby latches and starts sucking away I IMMEDIATELY fall into the biggest blackest hole that makes me feel like I should just crawl into my bed and sleep and not touch a thing in the house and that smile that was on my face has turned into a straight depressed face. I feel as if its postpartum knocking on my door trying to suck me in. I’ll have plans for the day and once I feed the baby before we head out my entire mood changes. I feel like being a flake and just taking a nap and shut off all the lights. It’s a scary thing to feel. For being a person that has never had a problem with depression, it’s a new emotion I have never felt, and I was determined to not fall into that feeling and go with it. It would subside once she had a good latch and ate for about 5 minutes, but it happens almost every single time. For some new moms it can be a sacry thing. You hear all about postpartum and the “baby blues” and youre scared to death itll happen to you. Maybe you don’t have other friends that nurse or your mom ever nursed. So now your stuck with this feeling thinking something is wrong. My advice for you is to fight that feeling, don’t fall into it. You are the only person that can determine what happens with you. I feel that feeling everyday, numbers of times a day and I fight it and I choose to keep doing it because I am powerful and stronger than that feeling. My baby deserves the world and if I can CHOOSE to do something great for them, ill always choose yes.
The next thing I notice is trying to loose the baby weight. If you don’t feel that depressed feeling like I did maybe you have had trouble losing the baby weight. All three of my kids I bounced back pretty good, but I still have those left over rolls I wanted gone. I’m on baby number 3 and still can’t figure out how to master it. My dilemma always was trying to figure out how to lose that last bit of weight without loosing my milk. Do you know how stressful it is to keep your milk?! If you don’t eat enough calories your supply could drop. If you get sick your supply could drop. If your cleanse or diet your supply could drop. If you don’t pump regularly your supply could drop. There are a billion reason how your supply can drop and its almost expected of you to know them all. Makes my freaking head spin dude. So, what I’m trying to get at is not everyone is educated in nutrition and healthy eating etc., such as myself, so you become stressed and lost.
I have fell into a hole of no self-love allowed. I hate my body, I am heavier than I ever have been, and it makes me so upset with myself. So, the point of this side effect is not loving yourself because you don’t want to lose your milk supply, so you don’t work on your body such as working out or cleanse. You just feel stuck and confused really. I look at myself in the mirror probably 2 times a day and just shake my head because not only can I not loose this last bit of baby weight but my youngest does not take a bottle, so that adds more pressure on me to make sure I don’t loose my milk. Having that much stress on you to help a baby human survive because god forbid your milk goes and you have NO IDEA what to do, can make someone go crazy. Granted I give myself some love saying I just had three babies, and not even 7 months ago did I have my last one but come on we all know that doesn’t set in all the time.
Breastfeeding has so many benefits and is a god given gift and something so so beautiful, but I wanted to share that no, sometimes it not always beautiful, it’s a lot of hard work and knowledge and most moms don’t make it passed 3 months or even 6 months.
Don’t let me scare you from trying or continuing it. I want you to know your not alone if you feel the things I feel. I’m telling you this because I want to inspire and to tell you you’re not alone. With all this bad it seems I listed there’s one important thing you need to remember and know…
It is all worth it.
I’m sticking to nursing after 7 months and going strong regardless of the hard nursing comes with.
Because she’s worth the sacrifice and deserves the best.
Its just me, being Courtney